Stupid me

I really dont understand myself. Am I alone in this? Have you ever experienced that you want a thing so much and while you have the chance to get it when you're least expecting it you just accidentally ''throw'' that chance away???

Well, that was me this morning. And regret the second after that chance slipped away. Do I ever learn???? Right, from this moment, I shall not repeating the same thing again. (Eventhough I've told myself the same thing last week) I shall be determined this time :D

Praying for myself.