Stranger

Stranger,

May I know you?

Where are you from?

What are you thinking?

What are you made of?

What's your name?

When will I meet Stranger again? or will we ever meet again?

I wanna know.

Wanna know everything about the Stranger.

Devil tells me it's possible to meet the Stranger.

Angel thinks the other way round.

I'm with Devil.

Who's with me?

Stupid me

I really dont understand myself. Am I alone in this? Have you ever experienced that you want a thing so much and while you have the chance to get it when you're least expecting it you just accidentally ''throw'' that chance away???

Well, that was me this morning. And regret the second after that chance slipped away. Do I ever learn???? Right, from this moment, I shall not repeating the same thing again. (Eventhough I've told myself the same thing last week) I shall be determined this time :D

Praying for myself.

Home Sweet Home!!!!!

Yes!!!!

Havent stepped into Malaysia for like more than a year!!! How's Malaysia like now????
Well it's just more than a year I know but would it already changed from last I've seen it???
How's everyone in Malaysia?
And I'm going to meet friends I havent seen for yrs and yrs!!! wow...the feeling is sooo amazing...just wondering if they've changed ! haha...and also my family of course, are they still the same? ! I must be crazy of course they're still the same. It's just the feeling of not been home for more than a year seems so....so....weird? And with mind full of wonderings and excitement.
Hmm I must have looked older now for them :( after yrs of endurance and challenge I've gone through. Anyway, goodbye to Newcastle for awhile.

Merry Xmas!!!

Merry Xmas everyone and this also means we now paving our way to year 2009!

What have I done in year 2008? Hmm....''fight'' in for the ''war'' in June, mostly. Yes that was the big part of my year 2008. And then 2008 is an important year for me as I struggled from living as a student to a pre-reg trainee, and I'm in working class now! No, it's not something to be happy bout, still prefer student life.

Cant wait for the trip to Bristol-London. And of course, let's get on with the once-a-year Boxing day!!!!!!

Wish everyone Merry christmas and a Happy New Year and stay happy & healthy always!

Life is short

As usual, working on Saturday and cant wait for tonight, as Christmas dinner waiting for me at home. All the way home, I couldnt stop thinking bout the food. Reached home and on my laptop.

A msn message by my sis popped up. Must be gossip again. No, unfortunately it's not. It's about someone passed away. My heart sunk. A relative of mine. She's not a close relative of mine but alot of images of her flashed through my mind. She used to visit alot of places and my grandma's house is one of her favourite stops. She used to teach us alot of things. And I remember her laughter, which is still so fresh in my mind now. Once I was still teenager and about going to school, she asked me to take a pic of myself. Well, I was so reluctant to do so as u know why. (Teenager with nerdy spec and "too proper'' hair). She told me ''Dont be shy to take a pic of urself so you can look back this pic when ur a grown up. And so ya, i was kinda forced to take it in front of grandma's house with books and the nerdy faceand I didnt smile. And I dont regret taking the pic now. She was right.

All I can remember is she was so healthy and fit and can go wherever she wanted at her age that time. I cant imagine her being sick really. Now that I received the news only that I remember I heard once from my parents that she was sick, but that was long time ago and I didnt know how sick she was. And I cant believe I wont see her forever now.

Life is too short. You just have to appreciate everything from the second you're born.

And do rest in peace.

Homebound

Reading blogs of my siblings makes me think of my childhood again. I dont know what others think of me, whether I'm a really homebound person or not. But I know myself. Deep down inside of me, I'm a really homebound person.

Since young, my parents always know I'm not as active as other kids. I like to "stick'' at home and I wasnt like other kids who like to hang out with their friends most of the time. Mom used to ask me to mix with friends. I have had always told myself that I must mix around since young, I know I cant ''stick'' at home forever. Whenever I went on a trip, be it school trip or graduation trip, in which it would be just few days maximum of leaving home, I would still be missing my home so much. I dont know why. My parents....grandma...siblings....aunts etc. And I looked around, my friends, I did figure out they were not like me.

And now here I am, living in UK without any of them. Is that called Independent? I'm not sure. But I really miss my childhood. I really wish the clock would just stop there when I was young. When I was still playing around with bro and sis, and cousins. As usual, whenever I came back here from Malaysia I would try to get rid of the sad feelings and tried to hold on my tears. I know I shouldnt be thinking negatively, but I do sometimes worry how much more time that I could spend with them as I might be working here for few years time and not seeing them much especially my grandma. I like to be around her, always.

I really miss being at home.

Guess this is just another emotional post.

Ish!!!

I did experience a day of feeling shouting at the pharmacist, for the first time. I've always been a quite patient person but there was a pharmacist (a locum, obviously) just put me off! A well gentleman with quite posh accent,he is, well....at least from his look.

2 pharmacists were in as my tutor was on holiday. He came in and the first thing he did was talking to another pharmacist. We were unusually busy that day and I was typing while dispensing. Everyone in the dispensary was like running here and there except him, standing still with the mouth moving. I didnt expect him to help us alot, but, at least can he just shut his mouth and put away some of the stocks??!!! Just a lil help, maybe just put away one box or 2 box of medicines is enough to show he's helping us. He didnt even bother! One of the dispensers got fed up and said ''excuse me, can u guys give us a help pls? '' of course he did walk towards us and seemed quite willingly to help us.

He walked closer to us and start talking again. What's the point? just changed the spot of talking??!!! Went out for cigarettes like for 6 times in a day? And another pharmacist supposed to go home before him and he actually dared to ask is it possible to stay another 5 mins while he go out to have some cigarettes.....can u actually believe that???!!!

Another pharmacist cover for my tutor on Friday, as usual, to catch up with the MUR. My tutor told me the pharmacist was like his grannies. Ya, indeed. lol. One more thing, he LOVES typing! During my tutor's lunchtime, tutor arranged me, a dispenser, and him in the dispensary and I was the one who supposed to type (well, coz I type real fast...hehe). And we were so ''lucky'' to have so many scripts at that moment and I tried to help them by dispensing some of them and left the few of the baskets for the "granny" to check. I've always thought the first priority of pharmacist is checking the medicines and signing them, surprisingly, he moved aside the baskets that I've done and went to type labels instead. He must have applied the wrong job!!! I really dont mind of he's a fast typer, but he was as slow as snail by pressing one tab by one tab...imagine that! But I did feel it was funny when the dispenser was so stress and asked him to get off the computer! Lol. unfortunately he didnt hear that.

By da way, the weather now has gone insanely cold! Need to spend more on moisturisers and lotions :(